hold me tight
and we will run together
in search of the dream
the dream that we shared
just YOU and ME*
takemyHAND*
hold me close and say three words like you used to do just three words iloveyou-
navigate; right*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Friday, February 10, 2006
9:21 PM
Colours of the RAINBOW:
Yeah todae is mie n my dear dear 4th month anniversary..... Firstly Happie Anniversary darling i love u alwaes one n onli..... i really regret wat i did to u i really sorry..... i promise i won repeat the mistake again..... n i love u onli trust mie onli u... no one can take away my heart cause my heart already belongs to u......
Yesterdae i'm really sad... it is reallie the first time i cry out loud shout for help in relationship problems...... really juz a bit i think we are gone.... for 4 months we together.... i really feel veri hurt veri sad...... once and again i hurt my love one... i dun knoe why? breaking up wif him is reallie hard 4 mie... cause watever i left seems to be him onli...... izzit all jealousy fault... i really dun knoe..... n i dun wan it to happen anymore in future haiz lets dun tok about it....
dear dairy, i really think that i am a failure in life .... i can do nothing to help my family, my relationship... i really nv expect that much from god.... i juz onli one small happiness with no quarrels in my relationship.... n juz a small happie n enjoyable family.... i wish i can bring smile to my love ones that is alwaes beside mie.... i tried my best to bring them smile but i fall once again n again.... how come like tat.... it alwaes turn out to be neegetive.... everyone do have the limits... i really scare if i fall again i cannot stand up anymore n i scare i chose the wrong path....
this few daes i dun knoe wat happen to mie it juz can't be explained out... juz tat every morning i feel veri moody.... n when in class i wan or wish to be alone, i dun wan anyone to disturb.... watever thing i do i juz feel like to do alone... i dun wan to show my unhappiness to the one beside mie... so i alwaes tried to laugh... but everytime i laugh i feel hurt in my heart... cause i knoe i m lieing.... i am still thinking how to solve all the problems in my heart n mind.... mummy n daddy how i make them happie couple again? everytime mummy complain how i wish i can avoid but once again i c her down... i really felt sad.... veri... i dun knoe..
everytime i saw couples together, how i wish i can be like them alwaes have dear dear by my side... but i can't cause "he" need to serve 2 years of amy... 2 years although it could be said to be short but 4 mie is rather longer than everyone is expecting.... yes i admit i am reallie jealous.... can i wish that he can spend more time together with mie.... i tried to control... cause i knoe once he book out he will meet mie straight.... i reallie happie... i'm sure every gal will feel lonely once their loves one go army.... u nv taste it u nv knoe.... but gals there is no choice... u have to face the fact... one week he could the most c u for less than 2 days.. tat is less then 48 hours... My wish now is to allow this 2 years to pass faster....
last week was so busy week soo many presentation, unlimited homework and project to be finish.... i really stresss alot alot.... every night i have to stay till late late juz to finish the work.... wat i really knoe now, was tat u reallie cannot compare ite n poly life... it really a veri big gap alot alot of difference.... in ite we can do watever we wan... even homework there is not much..... compare to poly haiz... i reallie dun knoe wat to sae..... i tot i can get use to poly life but.... can i stop studying now n go ahead in the working environment????? dear dear dun allow, i mention lots of time tat i wan to drop sch cause i cannot take up all the stress that i face in poly... i dun wan to continue but the answer i get from him alwaes a big NO !
Lastly, exam is onli 3 days away.... i wish tat it hurry pass then i reallie can RELAX.... go out find the freshest air ever.... n my chalet that is coming out YEAH!!!!!!! Dear god, now i dun wish anything let mie score n do well in my coming exam.... this is my onli hope.... i do well mummy will be happie n even my dear... as long they happie i willing to scrafice.... god u can take away my everything but please make them happie as before...thank u n Amen...
message for my dear dear kenneth: dear forgive mie.... promise u won leave mie.... it's hard for mie to continue once u are gone.... dear i need u whenever i am down... i wish u could hold my every drop of tears..... i wan u to share my happiness with u.... i hope god will take away my sadness n unhappiness... i wish we could last prove to them that we can be together till the end... i will love u... nv betray mie n i won do it to u.... and thank you for being my darling... muackzzzzzzzzzz....
hold me TIGHT, and NEVER let go*
takeMEbytheHAND.
Sharon Ng
20th DEC 1985
Spore Poly
