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merry christmas

2006-12-24T02:46:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas to everyone...... haven blog for almost 2 weeks... todae spend a night at my honey place... gt christmas celebration at his hse... actually wanted to go to my fren hse.. i too tired to leave the hse... juz browsing thru my 21st birthdae celebration de photo.. hehe

received so many present alot of ang bao money... 2 more weeks sch reopen le...... so fast.. ar.. i haben play enuff yet.. then soon exam coming.. sad

LUB LUB being with one another ????

2006-12-06T21:35:00.000-08:00

Piles of homework and projects kip coming and adding stresses to us.... i almost can't cope anymore...... haiz....Hoping holidae will come faster....

i juz hoping that forever i am a baby... i hate to be a adult...... adult sux.... stress, troubles....i wish mummy will be alwaes beside me forever n ever....... she is the onli one who will reallie take good care of mie... understand mie what i reallie wanted.... i am too pampered by them...

Can i skip my birthdae... i dun reallie wish to be 21 yrs so fast.... i still wan to be a child... i like being pampered........ times reallie files so fast... is juz like yesterdae i still playing games with my cousin at ah ma old hse..... those daes was reallie my happiest dae... no troubles but lots of fun.... when each dae passes, more worries n troubles i had....

todae i was so happie, so long nv watch movies with my frens.... being months n years..... and its been so long i last watch a movie.... finally we get to go home before 12pm..... yippie.... we took so long to decide on one movie.... in the end wan leng suggested to watch 9:56... we oppose at first in the end, everyone agree....my veri first time to watch ghost movies in theater with my frens..... but in the end broke a promise.... i promise to let my darling be the first person to watch ghost movies with but in the end.... i did sae sorrie... but i think nothing can repay anymore.... he is hurt n i am hurt by his words he sae to mie..... " leave mie alone and Fuck off". juz imagine my onli love one shout that to mie repeatlyyyyyyyy..... the thought of mine is that he dun love mie anymore!!!!!! the word continuously appear again n again...... i dun wan to start a quarrel... i juz can't control my emotion anymore.... i tot i finally can prove that i am brave but in the end.... tears roll down my cheeks..... this is my bao ying????

i ate few mouths of rice n i am full.... fridae presentation... i m not prepared... HeLp!!!

HOnEy can Pls StoP all thosE i wish wE caN lAsT tilL thE eNd.. SORRIE FORGIVE MIE!!!

all i wish is someone to play n accompany mie

2006-11-25T08:35:00.000-08:00

PAIN PAIN EVERYWHERE!!!!!!

juz now when cycling, come back not long ago onli.... we cycle from tampines all the way to fisherman village... arrrrr... so long journey... too long nv exercise le.... haiz... so late le haben take myy dinner... so hungry... daddy bringing us to eat at 12am later.... REN AR.....

yesterdae gt a gift from my teacher a huge DEAD OR ALIVE poster.... arrrrr... gt top for the 2 classes... so happie..... but the gift is so bulky n big.... hw i wish i can juz throw it away... but is the gift from teacher... haiz in the end i brought it hm. tot i can bring home gif my dar dar.... but seems he is not interested at all.... my first time scoring such a gd result, nv expected such a gd one... i tot i could happily go home to celebrate with my close ones but all seems that they are all busy with something..... no one share the joy with mie.... i show daddy first i gt hm... he sae "orh".... that was the onli word n my mummy she haiz...... all i wish was a encouragement words from them but i m disappointed.... thinking i m so lonely.....

i tot darling will call mie when he reach hm but.... i waited till 6am... he nv call.. i juz feel that something is in btw of us.... is he hiding anything fr me????? i met a fren in maple.... she is nice.... she tok to mie.... i share my problems wif her... i dunno y... i juz too down yesterdae.... i nid someone beside mie n tok to mie... haiz...

F5 WAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO MIE AGAIN!!!!!!! nvm i m alright now.... time for my mapling... hehehee

Boring

2006-11-21T22:10:00.000-08:00

haiz... so tiring... juz pat my darling to bed.... looking him slping so sweet i m so.... wahahaaa... he had been working all along by himself, his fren basterd him!!!!! so bad...... xin ku him le...

finally gt back 2 exam paper tml another 1 scary!!!! arrr... my contact pro. did so badly n it was a open book test... 69 for a exam... arrrrrrrrr i dun dare to tell anyone.... my first time getting such a low low grade...... wat happened to mie.... wat is this men!!! actually i knoe i will do badly cause i nv really gt the heart to study it.... still remember the dae b4 i still can go cycling wif daddy alll.... spend onli 1 or 2 hrs study it..... this is reallie a punishment to mie..... ouch!!! i burst into tears when i reach hm n he scolded n pampered mie... sob sob..

this sem... reallie gt no heart to study well for my exam.... wat i think was to slp n to play.... i reallie scare to get back the others.... it look like one is lower then the other.... i dun wan... can i retake or throw away!!!!

celebration

2006-11-17T22:53:00.000-08:00

finally i m release from the cage.... yeah... exam finish loh........ yippie.... so happie... but i can't get to celebrate with my fren after exam.... dar dar is at home waiting for mie....

todae went to daddy de boss's son engagement... the gal was so young.... 18 yrs... even younger then mie now is married... omg....so look like a kid still..... everything all mummy.... haiz..... yucks i dun wan so early married..... hahahaha...

happie birthdae daddy

2006-11-16T19:01:00.000-08:00

yeah tml last paper loh!!
happie birthdae daddy!!!!

2006-11-14T21:47:00.000-08:00

todae is the second paper.... two more papaer i am free.... can finally start planning for my upcoming birthdae party......... yippie....

my eyes bags n dark circle are getting darker each dae..... haiz... everydae nv slp well, slept for few hours then have to wake up and study.... this is so xin ku but i gt to tahan..... hopefully i won fall ill again..

todae came back i peng alreadie... no energy... lucky there is a dae in between the week for mie to rest tat is tml... no paper tml... but thurs n fri is tough.... i still hab to study.... overall gt to rest for a dae is good enuff better then nothing......... yipppie...

2 more paper to struggle...... best of luck to mie.....

2006-11-11T10:41:00.000-08:00

juz finish studying 2 topics of mondae test......... but seems that everything is forgotten again... rushing to finish this topic by tml.... midnight is the best time for mie to study!!!!

after incident happen... i get to knoe wat really i wan... i love him... he love mie..... i trust he won go a 99% confident he won leave mie.... nothing will break us apart... i really nid him badly... the 1% ehh hard to sae ba.. juz cannot cannot 100% confident i scare an adverse effect will arise...

for the whole dae i taken one a glass of milk for breakfast n lunch n a glass of chocolate milk for dinner.... i weight myself i reduce 3 kg... from 42kg to now 38 or 39kg... seldom do sit-up after he come back...

My wish list:
1) i wish to gain back my love freedom
2) i wish i can do well in the coming exam
3) i wish lots of friends to attend my birthdae party!!!!!!!!
4) i wish to leave in a world without regrets
5) i wish i can finish sch fast n get into working environment

hoping everyone is happie....... as happie as they are........

i m really veri stress, cannot take it anymore. the only hope is the strength of love from him... he pull mie up n encourage mie... i m lonely... 21 years i diff for mie to pass... seems i really dunno anything much yet.... i m 21 but mind is onli 13... i m still as childish as b4.. i can't forsee my future.... m i dragging anyone down? i shld not but... a conclusion i am stupid n useless... i nid someone to take care of mie...

2006-11-09T22:58:00.000-08:00

ALL BULLY MIE!!!!! HUMPH!!!!!! SOB SOB
I WAN GET WELL !!!!
I WAN STUDY!!!!!

IreNe's BirThDaE PaRty..

2006-11-04T17:02:00.000-08:00

yesterdae gt home veri late..... around 3 plus..... my monkey came meet mie... we walk round n round bugis.... it was damm crowded... i dunno wat is the purpose of going there????? hahahahaa actually plan to eat at bugis but in the end we still decided to go to irene's birthdae party....

i juz taken some rice n few meats n a corn and i m full...... wahahaha.......... dar dar dun know hw to cook the things.... he put too much butter n the oil kept spiting out..... that was reallie painful..... :( he took so many beef n nobody eat... in the end have to throw it in the dustbin... wat a waste....

after then we went to a place... suppose to b a pub but.... ehh.... n ended up in a place that we can do nothing there.... cannot smoke, cannot sing... onli can drink there.... but aniway is good wahahaha cause i hate the smoking smell.......... but i bad for them they hab to go in n out inorder to smoke...

i tasted some of the heniken yucks so bitter.... juz took few slips n i dun wan liao.... feeling quite bored when go out with them.... feeling so weird at times... haiz.....

i hate crs.... week 9 we hab to do presentation again.... wat is this men.... i hate stupid chiong tye yuan...... chiong her head ar.... we so stress liao... she add in more.... her expectation is damm high.... i hate hate hate her..... dun wan take crs anymore....

Boring Dae

2006-10-28T18:05:00.000-07:00

soo bored todae..... arrrrrrrr.... whole dae do nothing... wanna study but... no mood... yesterdae pon sch hahahaa... cause nv do finish my homework.... my hon help mie till 4 plus midnight... but still cannot finish... so diff my english so lousy and i was so sick, brain cannot think... haiz... lucky in the end still manage to finish it n small bully help mie hand in my work....

for the past hour i hab been finding my mood to start study for this coming mondae test but..... seems like... haiz... so fast term test is coming... i scare... cause most of the modules i dun understand wat the teacher is toking abt....

i wan shopping more shopping........ waahahahaaaa.....

Love You lots

2006-10-25T17:02:00.000-07:00

Finally for a long long waiting time..... 1 month has passed... i finally get to meet him hug him tight n nv let him go anymore....... yeah....

yesterdae was a busy dae... firstly went to his baby cousin 1st month birthdae celebration... then went to buy my perfume..... we walk fr far east to ps.... it was fun.... so long time we nv did tat liao.... heheeeee.....

sorry hon hon hai u spend so much on mie yesterdae..... hahahahaaa.... this is the punishment for 1 month nv go shopping with mie.... wahahahahaaa.... i wan more shopping.... hon ur ring ur braclet n anklet had tie mie to u.... i can't run away liao.... n the ring... is a promise..... that we will last forever..... thank you soo much.... love you.... muackz...

Troubles

2006-10-21T00:43:00.000-07:00

todae i tok to my honey for abt 10 to 20 mins n i been force to put down... then i found out that oh is my card no mone liao.... sad.... we were happily toking then suddenly it juz cut off.... well he will be coming back on mondae le.... i juz hab to "ren" for juz one more day.... hahahahaaa....

its mummy birthdae le.... after 12 liao..... happie birthdae mummy.... mie n my 2 sis share money to buy her a watch for her.... it free a bag... hahahaaa...... that was the last min shopping..

haiz whole dae todae i been doing nothing but juz slp n slp n slp n surf net.... the dae pass so fast... dar dar alreadie left mie for almost a month... haha.... yeah... he is going to be back soon.... but exams also coming too.... well my aim to get distinction tis time round i hope i can... CHIONG AH.... tml morning we will be going to malaysia.... daddy wanna drive in... this time onli mi mum, dad, ah ma n ah gong going.... mei mei n sis cannot go they all are busy.... hope i get to buy my levis jeans tml... i hope my birthdae presents ppl buy lots of clothes for mie.. n more more jeans.............. yeah.....

so boring everyone is slping now, left mie alone.... i juz can't slp dunno y.... some flashes juz kip passing thru my mind.... n some question alwaes appear on my mind " juz 1 plus more month i will be 21 years???? wat is my planning after my studies??? i dunno everything i nv plan nv do any research..... leaving in a aimless life..... haiz.... reallie i think i m a failure... everyone does have their own aims wat is mine i wonder....m i happy now?" n "is this the way i wan to leave"??? m i wasting my time???????? yesh i did think alot for my future.... i wan to get into a "U" but i dunno whether i wan local or oversea "U" everyone told mie singapore U is better then others but is it reallie true??? but if i choose oversea i nid to spend lots of money... n mostly i can't bear to leave my loves one in singapore for a year.... juz 1 month i been thinking n miss him lots.... then if a yr?? wat would happen? i think i dun even hab the mood to study there.... my family wat abt them?

wow so fast going to be 21 years liao.... wa lao so old sia... i dun wan leh.... haiz... if i starting study real hard now i think i shld be in the working society liao.... haiz now i still nid to get allowance fr them... i feel real bad... dunno when then i can start to earn n gib them $$ so they nid not be so tiring... i so helpless now... cannot help in anything... i feel ashame... i juz wish my studies will end fast... i could go out work n earn money.. repay them n they can plan for their retirement... n most important to get gd result to go into gd "U"... heheheeee

suddenly felt more relax after writing all my minds out.... i think i shld go bed now??? hahaha alreadie 1 plus liao... later he scold mie hahaha.... he not in i so naughty nobody control mie... later he come back sure beat my backside liao....

k ba... good nitez everyone.....

1 more dae i can c him................................... hurry pass....

2006-10-20T20:28:00.000-07:00

wow online shopping is fun !!!! hahaha the clothes r beautiful... but i dunno whether it suit mie not........ i measure my shoulder is 36cm n my thigh is 17 inch n my waist arrrrrrrrrrrrr... i fat liao 25inch..... hip 29inch..... arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr fatty bong bong...... hw..... start to plan for my slim down programme liao.... ermmm i being doing sit ups everydae for almost 2 weeks liao... onli reduce 1/2 inch.... wat is this.....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bu hao de.......... tummy sux...

todae crs lesson was so fun i love to voice out.... having fun shooting each other.... wahahaha.... christ speak in chinese todae n she hab to sing chinese song to the classs..... it was so funny... mie n shun hui sa bo shuping..... hahaha we told teacher.... she also hab to sing.... haha i love to play..... opps i think teacher recongize mie liao.... wan leng not good de.... nv wait for mie she go home.... pon crs..... sob i nid go home myself.... lucky gt christ pei mie.. heheee....

i now slp earlier n earlier liao... dunno y.... my fren told mie tat cause i miss him too much then i think slping will make the time pass faster.... izzit?????? hahahahaaaaa.... i think so too... but something juz trouble mie... yesterdae call him but he seems like dun wan to tok to mie.... is he sick of mie liao?????? he dun love mie??????????? izzit... i dun dare to think anymore liao... heart pain..... last time i call him he was like so happie lots of stuff to tell mie but.... maybe perhaps he is tired......... sobbbbbbbbb

i wan dar dar..... yeah last 2 dae to count down.....

Counting the daes i could see my darling again 2 daes left.

prize presentation

2006-10-18T21:57:00.000-07:00

MY PRIZE PRESENTATION CEREMONY !!!!

finally finish doing 50 sit up.... hahahaaa... stomach pain.... gt diaorea... eeeeee so smelly... heeehe todae is my first time late for sch in this sem... i reach sch at 8.30... hahaa n lesson suppose to start at 8....... i put my alarm clock at 7 tot lesson is 9 todae.... haiz......

todae is the prize presentation hahaaa.... mummy attend the ceremony with mie todae.... heheheee stoopid thing onli allow one ppl to attend... no space for my dad...... hehehe

actually wanted ask dar if he wan to go wif mie but he not in singapore..... sad..... me gt $200 for my award... yeah..... gt money to shop shop again... heheeee.... because of this prize..... haiz... look at my precious little toe..... pain pain is full of blister..... put total of 4 plaster.... pain pain....

overall.... hope that i can do even better then b4 n to work hard to achieve better result in future.... of course hope no stressssssssssss... congrats to mie.... hahaa n not forgeting i miss dar dar lots lots.... my card left 3 plus dollar onli enuff to tok to him for abt 10 to 20 mins.... sob sob.....

i wan dar dar... i wan huggies..... i wan everything............ misss u veri veri muchhhhhhhh.....

OMG my hair so golden !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Counting the daes i could see my darling again 4 daes left.

i wan my honey

2006-10-16T21:28:00.000-07:00

i wan my honey back now........ the haze is killing mie i m sneezing for the whole dae.. so xin ku.... sob sob... :( n tummy hurts.... my hair so bright... so dry like grass?????

i miss darling... nxt mon he come back loh... yeah... hurry pass this week..... i wan huggies.... muackz...

Counting the daes i could see my darling again 6 daes left.

shopping is fun.... but $$$$$$$$

2006-10-15T21:49:00.000-07:00

Mie n wanleng went shopping yesterdae.... brought myself 2 tops, one bottom, 1 belt n many accessories... shop until our legs aches alots..... but its fun to shop n spend..... we gt a plan to save all our pocket money n spend it during weekends.... heheeeee... we love shopping yeah....

todae mie n mei mei went to get our hair done.... overall was pity nice.... but i juz not use to my hair colour now.... so bright.... arrrrrrrrrr.... the person bleach my hair..... eeee yucks.... mei mei take almost half the dae to complete her hair done........ wait until i wan slp liao..... even now my hw is not completed sad....... my hair soooooooooooooooooo smelly cannot stand it already wash 3 times still can't get rid of the smell........ i going to faint.........

my dar dar is coming back loh....... less than 10 daess.... finally become single digit liao loh.... can't wait to c him........ he told mie he ate alot there..... emmmm... willl he be fatter.... hahahahahaa... my fatty bom bom.... but i will still love him alwaes...... muackz..

Counting the daes i could see my darling again 7 daes left.

2006-10-13T10:10:00.000-07:00

Fishy happie birthdae!!!!!
todae is fishy birthdae we went china town to have a big fest.... we brought lots of foods.... eat until my stomach blotted.... wahahahaaaaa... everyone in the end carry a big tummy hm..... so funny.....

it had been 20 daes he left mie in singapore... i reallie miss him lots lots..... wishing every min every second can hear his voice.... but seems my bill is bursting.... arrrr sad....

i wan him go in one piece back to my side in one piece.... i alwaes wish he was by my side.... i wan huggies n kisses... miss him too much n i alwaes throw temper.... i reallie love him lots... wish to leave him n tie him to my side... god juz arrange another test for us..... 1 mth i can't c him...honey i miss u can u feel it? i hate to slp.... everytime i slp i miss his call... i dun wish to c a miss call of darling in my list.... i wish i can pick up all his call... his call is so much important to mie.... let mie relax n feel the concern n love back to my heart....

when can i ever my dar again.... i dun wan him to leave mie anymore in my life.... life without him was too blend n loney.... but wat i can tell him was I LOVE U ALWAES IN MY DEEPEST HEART... muackz....

Counting the daes i could see my darling again 9 daes left.

happie anniversary

2006-10-10T22:54:00.000-07:00

HAPPIE 1ST YEAR ANNIVERISARY

i juz woke up by my sis.... mind is so blur.... she shake mie and sae "ur darling" i woke up immediately.... then i found out darling is on the net in msn so..... i reallie so happie when i can tok to him...... haiz todae i was juz too tired fell asleep... doze off when i watching the tv..... econs n the ct project pressure mi n my grp member so much...... suppose to have 5 members in a grp, nw turn out to be 4 women work..... sian ar... cannot stand her anymore..... stoopid!!!!!!

half way thru the lesson my emotion start.... todae was our anniversary.... remember???? miss my darling then juz can't control almost cry out.... miss u honey happie anniversary to u... hope we will be as happie as before n ever.... take care n i love u.......... haiz its our 1st year god so bad seperate us..... but think it shld be a big challenge to us to c how strong our bonding is???? since the first year we can't celebrate then we can celebrate on the 2nd 3rd n all....... alwaes..... heheee

yeah he will be back in less than a week.... i wan c his face.... my cutie fat honey... heee... did another 50 sit ups todae... tummy pain......

Honey take care n miss u thanks for testimonial... lub u muackz.....

Counting down to c my darling again 12 daes left

MissinG honey 4 Anniversary

2006-10-09T22:53:00.000-07:00

left one hour n 7 mins to our anniversay... i miss him far too much n scare i lose him too.... firstly is his birthdae now our 1st yr anniversary... i was far disappointed this time.... i regret of letting him go...

haiz school todae is boring... i learn nothing.... i juz spending money to go sch n play instead of gaining knowledge... we have no aims n goal.... life is so boring... morning wake up prepare to go sch then spend long hrs in sch then come back wait for dinner then slp.... the daes continue till fridae.... sat.. do nothing but going out n spend money money....... sun prepare for mon....

i think i prefer working rather then study.... working u gain experience n money... can buy wat u wan.... in sch is a waste of time...... waste my storage of facts.... so sianz.... i miss giving out the balloon n playing n slacking with wan leng.... i can even cut my hair during my working hrs so funny..... but i hate my hair style now.... some so short kips poke my eyes haiz.....

the most funny thing is that the boss even caught us slping while we r working.... he nv complains but still employ us to work wif him in future???? wat kind of boss is him? but i still hate the fat ass... so irritating sae we brought de stuff lousy wat abt him.... he is so lao tu...... haiz....

thinking wat will happen if i go into work society?

Counting down to c my darling again 13 daes left

HaPpIe BiRthDaE HoNeY

2006-10-07T22:08:00.000-07:00

HaPpIe BiRtHdaE My hOnEY, mY DaRlInG

Happie birthdae my honey..... its the 5th time i sae that to him liao... i reallie feel so bad n sad cannot wish him infront of him....

this is the first time to celebrate his birthdae... but he is not around by my side...... i wish i can hug him kiss him sing a birthdae song n blow candle with him.... he wish tat too but.... he was juz too lonely to celebrate his birthdae alone.... sob sob...... i reallie veri sad......

todae the haze was so bad psi reached 150 liao.... poor mie n wan leng still have to wake up at 8 to go work...... stupid haze make my throat so dry... n is veri choking..... diff to breath... arrr.. sad wondering tml how high the psi will reach...... hoping that mon lesson cancelled...... haiz so tired n xin ku..... i hate the big fat pig..... n the ah soh who call us auntie for 3 times hate it.... do we look so old to call us auntie........ sob......... freaking hell....... whole dae being daydreaming lots.... miss him too much wish can c him now... i..

Counting down to c my darling again 15 daes left

2006-10-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

yesterdae cannot slp... think in the afternoon i slp too much liao.... sob in the afternoon i slept at 3 and wake up at 7.... wow slept for 4 hours sia.......... no wonder in the night i can't slp..... i was juz tosing around the bed n listening to music n till 4 plus then i finally fell asleep...weeweeeeee

todae wake up at 8...... sad then gt panda eyes so ugly......... hoping that the cucumber mask will helps in my dark circles........ ermmm...

tml again gt crs lesson... i hate it soo much..... haiz.... so difficult leh... haiyo.... english dam bad... sob sob.....

dar dar no call mie for 2 daes liao.... i miss dar dar...... sob sob........ help !!!!!!!!!

Counting down to c my darling again 17 daes left

Memories.....

2006-10-04T23:08:00.000-07:00

While browsing thru the photos arranging the photos in my com..... i found lots of funny photo taken while we juz enter into polytechic...... our face looks so funny the hair style too.... hahaha c liao i wan to laugh.... wahahahaaaa

Found this kenneth darling posting to the camera:

wow if he c this he sure kill mie sia.... wahahahaaaa.... better shhhhhh... i wonder how come is in my photo album???? hmmmm.... looking at the pics we took together... i reallie cannot control my feelings......... reallie heart pain.... miss him again n again n again.... nw he seldom call mie the stupid army come fall in... he need to start controlling lots of stuff so busy...... eeeeee bu hao de..

todae juz recevied my bill..... i spend 36 dollars on overseas call arrrr so expensive.... but overall i think is worth it at least cannot c the person but i can hear his voice i really veri happie liao....

aiya nth to write in blog todae leh.... so boring.... k lah write till here liao.... wan to go bath liao... heheeeeee....

miss him like crazie arrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Counting down to c my darling again 18 daes left

Sick mIe ForR AlmosT 2 WeEks

2006-10-03T23:25:00.000-07:00

StilL mAnAgE 2 tAkE PhOto DuRinG WoRkInG HouRs... heheee !!!!!
Poor mie i have been sick for 1 week plus liao....... stoopid haze making mie more sick..... my throat was so dry making mie cough n cough n cough till i wan die liao........ sob sob.... yesterdae gt diaroea..... go toliet for 5 times..... arr make my butt so pain..... a burning sensation...
so xin ku.... i wan die liao..... whole day in sch todae i feel like slping... diff to kip mie awake dun know y! dun knoe izzzit the medicine thati eat in the morning r sleeping pill or diaroea medicine... haha anyway dun know wat i study todae so blur..... blur like sotong... hahaa

i misss my darling so much.... yesterdae call him he hang up my phone.... angry sia........ haiz mie thinking one night y he did this....... argh..... todae i confront him........ he called n i ask him y he like that.... in the first place i tot he so playful play punk on mie....... and then he told mie that was not him yesterdae... is his fren who is disturbing.... n his fren told him that was a bangala called him with a long long phone no.... sad.... since when i become a bangala liao leh... think i gt xiang si bing liao......... he will be more busy this few weeks all the ppl come liao he nid to handle lots of things liao...... means lesser time to tok him liao..... sob

this semester is so stress....... lots of projects..... becoming a mountain liao.... sat n sundae going work wif wan leng again this time reallie have to find thing to do all else the job is so slack....... time pass so slow.......... but pay was reallie great men.... juz to gib out balloon......... then gt pay liao.......... hope that i won get blister again......... sob......yeah got money can buy lots of things liao..... emmm...

i miss him miss him so much i wish i can c him now... i wan to watch movie wan to go shopping wan to do lots of things that couple does.... i m jealous.... 3 more daes to his bdae n 7 more dae to our 1 year anniversary........... i dun wish to be alone to celebrate.... but seems that i left with no choice to wait n wait till he come back....

honey.... take care lot lots i miss u... u miss mie... hw r u doing there.... darling long time nv c u then u gt grow fatter ????????????

Counting down to c my darling again 19 daes left

23 Daes left

2006-09-30T22:38:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to sae todae..... haiz..... went to teach my darling di di....... haiyo... his maths reallie veri bad.......... n i reallie too stupid to teach him.... dun knoe hw shld i start...... teach him for 2 hours i went to meet wanleng..........

todae have new idea of doing business..... wan leng n christ brought the clay n we planning to make something out using this clay....... post it n sell it in the blog shop..... heheheeee.... christ made a grape... which we find that was reallie cute...... wan leng made 1 rose..... its beautiful..... for mie..... heheee.... i think of nothing..... my whole mind is thinking of my darling..... he sae he will call mie b4 i slp yesterdae but i waited for few hours then i went bed......... i was too tired after the lesson.....

todae he called mie........ i scolded him..... heheeee.... nxt time muz make him miss mie then he will knoe hw i feel alone in singapore...... tml is the starting of oct.... 7 more daes i his birthdae.... 10 more daes is our 1st year anniversary n i can't celebrate with him....... so sad........ i sure make him compansate when he come back...... beat his pi pi..... hheheheeeeee......

Wonder when my cough is going to get well..... wonder whether he is fine now..... haiz haiz... haiz..

Counting down to c my darling again 23 daes left

DaR AwAy 4 3 DaEs

2006-09-29T19:50:00.000-07:00

it had been 3 daes i nv c him...... misses him so much......wonder wat is he doing now? he called yesterdae i was not feeling well, i couldn't breath tat well... my medicine was finished n i lazy to c doctor again........ i hate the doctors....... last night was the terrible night i was coughing the whole night, make mi difficult to slp.... arrr stress... lucky i still able to contact him thru phone at least can hear his voice every night b4 i slp.......... but when my bill come hehh hehh.... nagging from my mum..... oppsss.... todae brought the prepaid card think i can save a little ba....... hopefully heheeeeee..........

this semester modules are all so boring to we had our crs n i hate that module.... i was sttuck for half an hour thinking wat is the question asking n thinking how shld i start with that essay..... in the end i was the last one to complete the assignment...... izzit that medicine will make mie more stupid... stop mie from thinking?????? hate the stupid medicine... make my hand shiver alot... n leads to diffculty in writing......... slowler the rate too...... maybe also slow down my brain from working..... how i feel is just to slp n slp n slp............. lucky gt my mates that are so kind to wait for mie to finish up with my work....... heheheeee

yeah wan leng promise to go shopping wif mie on sundae......... finally can shop shop liao.... think i nid to get myself more tops...... this holidae i brougth too many shorts........... haiz....

Miss u darling... love u lots lots... 3 kisses for u muackz muackz muackz n a warm big hug... hope u can feel it... heheeee..

Counting down to c my darling again 24 daes left

DaRliNg LeAviNg MiE

2006-09-27T15:53:00.000-07:00

yesterdae got home abt 12 plus..... we went to see darling's baby cousin....... his first female cousin...... everyone was so happie at there.... the baby was juz like a small super star.... everyone was like waiting for the chance to carry n even touch her.... hahaaa

When we got home i was so tired....... but still slept at around 2........ was the last night with my darling......... sob sob.......... to c him again i nid to wait for 1 month later.... wonder he come back will grow fatter or stronger......... i juz can't wait to c him.......... starting to miss him now.......
wake up at 4 plus to 5..... but yet still lost the chance to fetch my darling to airport.... so sad... so guilty..... daddy fetch him to the airport...

At airport, he called mie twice........ but i was... i... was sleeping like a pig never heard my phone ring.......... haiz.. my phone is in slient mode........ dots.... again miss the chance to hear his voice for the last time....... stupid mie...... no hope..........he sae tat he will call mi when he reach there....... wonder why he still hasn't call mie yet....... i kept waiting for his call.... even adjust my phone ring tone to the loudest then i won't miss any chance already... but y he still haben call..... wonder hw long is the journey to india from singapore.... veri long????

Arrrrrrrrrrrrr.... i miss u honey.....

Counting down to c my darling again 26 daes left

First Dae In SchooL

2006-09-25T22:28:00.000-07:00

todae is the first dae of sch.... n a new opening of my blog.... hahahaaaa... it has been a long dae ever since i last blog .... sch was so boring todae n i have been suffering from stomache for the whole dae..... even now the pain is not gone yet.... ouch...

the stupid "econ" there is a combine of 4 classes in one...... headache.... class was so noisy i could hardly listen to the whole lecture n mie wanleng n christ was toking almost thru out the whole lesson..... e 2 girls sitting in front for us was like playing "beating of each other breast"???? wat the..... the first hit was so hard that i could heard a sound.... wahahahaaa.....

I feeling so weak so xin ku now.... haiz......mie n my daling have suffer frm the same illness for the past 2 daes...... tat was terrible ...when can we get well????? when can i stop coughing..... haiz..... poor mie n my sick darling....

darling is so good.... he reallies cares alot for mie first.... knowing that he is sick too... he still rushes down to my hse immediately after his outing with frens.... taking care of mie for the one whole night..... so touched.... then at noon time we head back to his hse to collect my stuff..... both of us was so weak that the first thing we reach his hse.... we seat down on the floor.... both almost fainted.....the whole dae i had been feeling like vomiting.... that feeling was so terrible....

BLur mie Just got home not long ago... fetching dar dar n his fren home.... n almost lost my way on the way from dar dar fren hse to dar dar house..... making a u-turn at changi airport..... omg..... that was really scary... i admit i really a "lu chi" .... haiz.... mummy still scolded mie n ask mie to memorise the whole road directory..... haiz haiz.....

Another dae in sch tml.... wonder wats new going to happen tml????

2 more daes, 31 hours 15 sec more darling will be leaving mie for a month to india...... no one will pei mie le.... sob sob.... n every weekend i will be at "home".... sob sob.... i miss him.....

Honey i will miss you alwaes.... take care n miss mie too...... sweet kiss for u muackz... nitez....

LoNeLy MiE

2006-03-03T09:22:00.000-08:00

MOST HATED DAE

todae was the most lonely one i ever had... everyone is not at home... busy with wat they r doing??? first tot that my dear dear will come early to pei mie n i long long time nv c him i miss him so much in e end i quarrel with him.... he message mie that he will be coming my house... i tot he is on the way... in the end he is actually still working... wat he meant is after he work finish then he will come... he nv even message mie nv even tell mie... how i knoe... i tot he is in trouble on the way here... i can't even find him.. message him or even call him he nv reply.... in the end he finally reply n sae he was working... but does he knoe how i feel... worried??? he everytime tell mie that where ever i go i have to tell him in the end he is doing such thing to mie... does a message really take a long time to reply... haiz in the end become all my fault... wat is this is so unreasonable.... todae i m is so unlucky.... now i knoe hw much i miss him... but he still dun get wat i mean.... i should be happie tat he make a effort to come n meet mie in the end i scolded him.. y am i so bad temper... haiz no use speaking now... hopeless...

guess wat now is 9plus n i have juz taken my dinner n u knoe wat it is maggie meee..... haiz i wondering wat happen to my daddy... y he is so irresponsible nowadaes... y he become like this.... haiz i reallie cannot imagine wat happen to him.... he told me he go for a run... tell mie how long can a run takes... he finish work at 5 now is alreadie wat time 9 he still not back... i wondering where he go... he dun care about his family le... i even call him ask him to buy my dinner in the end i waited till 9 n he still not back.. gt gastric n wanna find dear dear.. is so difficult... haiz.. now i wan to find a company to tok to is so difficult... is really hard...

dear dear now even dun understand how i feel... how much i need him... i lost my daddy now going to lost my dear dear... heart was reallie painful... how could i still carry on... y all guys r like tat when they are wooing u they listen so much to u... in the end once they get into the relationship they wan u to listen watever they like... is that reallie so call lovely relationship.. a relationship... i nv forget dear dear sae it alwaes take two hands to clap... overall wat a girl can do to improve the relationship is to obey wat guys r thinking alwaes... i hate that... can i leave.. y he is so irresponsible... i reallie confuse... did i trust my dear dear too much... i tot trust is e most important one but y i didn't get the sense of securityness??? dear wat happen to out relationship how can i help to make it last.... i done all my best... i reallie... soo sorry...

dear dear u knoe hw much i love u care about u .... can u feel tat... i tried to do as a part but i juz dun get ur happiness... i wan u to feel comfortable with mie... i miss u so much... i admit i am to harsh... thinking too highly of wat i wan but this is wat a girl alwaes wanted from her dear dear u knoe.... i understand i will love u no matter wat....

Trip to Malaysia

2006-02-20T20:32:00.000-08:00

A JOYFUL DAE THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN

Yeah yesterdae was the first time daddy driving to malaysia i veri happie.... the joy is really cannot be explained.... mummy n daddy's relationship seems to be better each dae... mummy has already veri long time nv complaint to me about daddy le.... yeah hopefully they are ok? they are fine..... hehee

Anyway... seems that i was so lucky get to go malaysia.... mei mei have to work then sis sick sick cannot go.... haiz but nevermind there is alwaes next time...... dun worry daddy promise us next next week he going to bring us there again..... the trip is not really tat long it takes about 30mins there n back gt traffic jam takes us 1 hour plus plus.... em me and daddy n mummy shop for so long thinking wat can we buy there finally me saw a levis long sleeve peach colour de... hehe nice nice... then daddy brought it for mie... this is my first levis top leh.... i love it lot lots... thank u daddy muackz muackz love u lots.... heheee

then i reach singapore around 8pm... ah ma and ah gong come then i fetch them home... wow... at night driving alone was really scary... mie really cannot c clearly... lucky gt mummy beside mie can help mie look out... die die construction at hougang road really confuse mie... haiz... mine dear dear hor... bad bad sae wanna meet mie yesterdae... i wait till 10 plus then he come.... so long.. haiyo mie miss him so much leh for 5 daes we nv meet n seldom tok to him.. i do housework till he come...

dear dear yesterdae come give mie a suprise... u knoe wat he brought 4 mie 4 valentine's dae??? heheheee... he brought mie a SK pendant leh... the box hor nice nice leh... i first c the packaging i tot he brought a ring for mie.... hehe this present really veri expensive... i love it alot alot hahaaa... thank you dear dear my darling..... muackz muackz.... actually dear i dun expect u to gib me such a expensive one... anyway dear dear nxt time dun waste the money okok... spend it on wat we or u need most.... but anyway i love watever u gib mie dun worry.... nvmind if the diamond is small or big i still will love it lots.....

Em... yesterdae... wow i really hope tat everydae is like yesterdae... i really veri happie happie....
soon exam is going to be over... but i really no confident i will do well... fridae autocad i also dun knoe wat happen... haiz n ect cannot finish the paper then law... haiz die die le...

Exam over then chalet will be coming yeah yeah..... counting dowm... dear dear... i will miss u lots lots todae u book in sob sob.... have to wait till sat.. so long haiz..... take care eveyone muackz... i miss u... i hope our relationship will last forever...

I LOVE THE LEVIS TOP THAT DADDY BROUGHT FOR MIE AND I LOVE MY SK PENDANT THAT DEAR DEAR BROUGHT FOR MIE... THIS TWO PRESENT IS REALLY ONE MEANINGFUL ONE... MY FIRST LEVIS TOP N MY FIRST DIAMOND PENDANT... DEAR DEAR N DADDY LOVE U BOTH THANK YOU............... MUACKZ MUACKZ.....

Sobz Sobx

2006-02-10T21:21:00.000-08:00

Colours of the RAINBOW:

Yeah todae is mie n my dear dear 4th month anniversary..... Firstly Happie Anniversary darling i love u alwaes one n onli..... i really regret wat i did to u i really sorry..... i promise i won repeat the mistake again..... n i love u onli trust mie onli u... no one can take away my heart cause my heart already belongs to u......

Yesterdae i'm really sad... it is reallie the first time i cry out loud shout for help in relationship problems...... really juz a bit i think we are gone.... for 4 months we together.... i really feel veri hurt veri sad...... once and again i hurt my love one... i dun knoe why? breaking up wif him is reallie hard 4 mie... cause watever i left seems to be him onli...... izzit all jealousy fault... i really dun knoe..... n i dun wan it to happen anymore in future haiz lets dun tok about it....

dear dairy, i really think that i am a failure in life .... i can do nothing to help my family, my relationship... i really nv expect that much from god.... i juz onli one small happiness with no quarrels in my relationship.... n juz a small happie n enjoyable family.... i wish i can bring smile to my love ones that is alwaes beside mie.... i tried my best to bring them smile but i fall once again n again.... how come like tat.... it alwaes turn out to be neegetive.... everyone do have the limits... i really scare if i fall again i cannot stand up anymore n i scare i chose the wrong path....

this few daes i dun knoe wat happen to mie it juz can't be explained out... juz tat every morning i feel veri moody.... n when in class i wan or wish to be alone, i dun wan anyone to disturb.... watever thing i do i juz feel like to do alone... i dun wan to show my unhappiness to the one beside mie... so i alwaes tried to laugh... but everytime i laugh i feel hurt in my heart... cause i knoe i m lieing.... i am still thinking how to solve all the problems in my heart n mind.... mummy n daddy how i make them happie couple again? everytime mummy complain how i wish i can avoid but once again i c her down... i really felt sad.... veri... i dun knoe..

everytime i saw couples together, how i wish i can be like them alwaes have dear dear by my side... but i can't cause "he" need to serve 2 years of amy... 2 years although it could be said to be short but 4 mie is rather longer than everyone is expecting.... yes i admit i am reallie jealous.... can i wish that he can spend more time together with mie.... i tried to control... cause i knoe once he book out he will meet mie straight.... i reallie happie... i'm sure every gal will feel lonely once their loves one go army.... u nv taste it u nv knoe.... but gals there is no choice... u have to face the fact... one week he could the most c u for less than 2 days.. tat is less then 48 hours... My wish now is to allow this 2 years to pass faster....

last week was so busy week soo many presentation, unlimited homework and project to be finish.... i really stresss alot alot.... every night i have to stay till late late juz to finish the work.... wat i really knoe now, was tat u reallie cannot compare ite n poly life... it really a veri big gap alot alot of difference.... in ite we can do watever we wan... even homework there is not much..... compare to poly haiz... i reallie dun knoe wat to sae..... i tot i can get use to poly life but.... can i stop studying now n go ahead in the working environment????? dear dear dun allow, i mention lots of time tat i wan to drop sch cause i cannot take up all the stress that i face in poly... i dun wan to continue but the answer i get from him alwaes a big NO !

Lastly, exam is onli 3 days away.... i wish tat it hurry pass then i reallie can RELAX.... go out find the freshest air ever.... n my chalet that is coming out YEAH!!!!!!! Dear god, now i dun wish anything let mie score n do well in my coming exam.... this is my onli hope.... i do well mummy will be happie n even my dear... as long they happie i willing to scrafice.... god u can take away my everything but please make them happie as before...thank u n Amen...

message for my dear dear kenneth:
dear forgive mie.... promise u won leave mie.... it's hard for mie to continue once u are gone.... dear i need u whenever i am down... i wish u could hold my every drop of tears..... i wan u to share my happiness with u.... i hope god will take away my sadness n unhappiness... i wish we could last prove to them that we can be together till the end... i will love u... nv betray mie n i won do it to u.... and thank you for being my darling... muackzzzzzzzzzz....

year 2006

2006-01-08T21:24:00.000-08:00

i think i have not blog for long long time already.... wahahahaaa... now is already year 2006... happy new year... our holidae juz passed last last week... school just open onli last tues.... haiz sianz... first week of sch we get back all the exam results... haiz... deproved alot alot... die die... muz jia you loh....

this semester reallie going to be veri busy le... haiz... gt soo many presentation coming.... and one presentation is coming soon on wed.... how how... panic i really dun knoe veri shy shy....

yesterdae night received a news from my sec fren.. my sec teacher ms devi has juz pass away... soo sad... sob sob.... haiz i think i have to stop here le....

a slient prayer for my teacher ms devi may she have in peace....Amen.

mIe At My DeAR DeaR hoUsE

2005-11-12T20:40:00.000-08:00

em...... i am soo happie todae waited for 3 weeks finally i can c my dear dear le.... haha.... em then i went to dear dear house..... soo sad cannot get my chicken little todae..... dear dear bad bad..... but he promise tml he will buy one for me.... hehee.... aiya gt nothing to write i juz stop here.......

tabby botak???

2005-10-30T20:11:00.000-08:00

yesterdae bring tabby go cut hair..... the person help him cut until botak..... c already wanna laugh wahahaha..... really veri funny.... daddy sae veri expensive tabby cut one time hair is equals to daddy cut 4 times hahahaa.... cost $40....

em... yesterdae reach home veri veri late about 12 plus to 1 am really veri veri tired.... i slept at 2 am leh..... haiz... really going to become panda le... hahahaaa... daddy loh soo good bring us go east coast walk walk.... aft tat go fetch mummy frm work then we go eat roti prata.... hahaha nice leh....

todae have to early early wake up... mie wake up at 9am then get ready.... heard that todae is all soul dae soo have to go cemetry pray my grandpa n lao ma n daddy's twin brother means my uncle..... i am the driver todae haiz... first time drive on the narrow road at cemetry... panic mie.. aft tat i ask my daddy to take my place cause.... hahahaaa... dun sae le... really tiring.....

tml school reopen le.... soo fast lucky lesson start at 1 pm in the afternoon at least i can wake up late hahahahaa..... thinking of the journey to travel there haiz.... sianz ah.... eh oh die le.....

when can i c him?

2005-10-28T23:38:00.000-07:00

hmm... i remember i juz blog this morning now blog again....haha soo funny!!! todae really soo tired first go back ite take the com cert for kent.... haiz.... then saw my section head she still recognize mie.... haha good good... then went behind our school there eat ban mian... really miss it soo much... wow then i rush to meet wan leng n the rest at east coast....

todae mie, suwati, wan leng, fish went cycling..... not forgeting last week we went there once too.. haha soo fast a week over le.... for dinner actually wanna go lagoon there eat de but raining haiz.... ended up we went to mc to eat our dinner...

todae boi boi call from taiwan again... bad news he sae he cannot call mi for 9 daes... going for outfield... really i... i... em nothing nothing haiz... juz hope he is fine in taiwan... ya think i really miss him.... miss his jokes n his hugs... how i wish i can see him now.... ahhh i think too much le school reopen soon how i haven get readi.... aghhhhh... ok think i stop here my eyes r getting tired.... yawn..... miss u darling muackz.... nitez nitez...

1 week loh....

2005-10-28T10:20:00.000-07:00

1 month school holidae soo fast over le N school is reopening juz next mondae onli..... should i be happie or sad leh.... think of the way to travel there really SIANZ ah... hahaha dun knoe y i soo lazy this few daes... soo lazy to blog.... haiz..... my boi boi go taiwan already one week le..... time really passes so fast... left 2 more weeks he coming back loh..... haha wish that he could find my chicken little toy toy em..... hope soo...wahahahaha... soo bad bad...

mie still remember last fridae we went out together shopping then meet my frens go cycle plus plus not forgeting to celebrate alick's be-lated birthdae.... haha kenneth soo bad everything also wanna comment.... haha like to joke alot too.... hmm... then after tat he need to rush back home get ready to go airport.... on the way to taiwan..... em ya i think i miss him too much heheheee....

tok about yesterdae..... fish brought us to eat fried chicken at paya lebar... we order a total of 3 whole chicken haha... nice nice leh.. after the dinner mi wan leng n carp went changi airport.....kelvin bad ps us..... never go.... seems like i long time never go there le... really changes alot... actually wanna go there eat ice-cream de but cannot find the resturant haiz.... in the end we went to buy some chocolate home.... yummy yummy... think i going to grow fat fat soon or later....

left 2 more daes to play le.... juz hoping to enjoy myself n dun waste every min every second yeah........

shopping yeah....

2005-10-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

Em... we went shopping at orchard todae.... my dear dear is flying off soon left 2 more daes haiz then i will nt get to c him 4 a month..... mie todae find a piglet for him is damm difficult haha all the piglet all not nice not cute find soo long finally brought one 4 him hahaa.....but it is soo cutie small haha.... then we head to far east to look for some nice clothing.... em... seems that i keep on wear the same clothes everytime... think it is time for mie to buy new clothes.... mie n fish n wan leng browse through so long finally wan leng brought her jeans haha....Aiya mie in the end brought nothing haiz......

we went to catch a movie aft that with my boi boi...... the cinema was damm cold forget to bring my jacket along....... the show veri rough leh all scold bad bad words haha... but is veri funny hahaha....... name "Deuce Bigalow: European Gigolo" M18 show.... then we go home haiz......... cannot go home too late later daddy scold haha.....todae check my result too...... mie dun expected this result i realli happie with it......... hehee dear dear not good alwaes say i stoopid humph.......

yeahhh...

2005-10-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

yesterdae took boi boi gib mi the pig.... sad sad piggy dirty le need to bath..... sob sob... veri cute cute piggy look like him........ let u all see see.....
todae we went second round of check up..... me confirm no tat stoopid disease... even i knoe i nv contact that disease i also dun knoe why i not happie.... juz feel moody.... y the gems wanna come to our class haiz... gib us soo much trouble..... then i meet my boi boi dear dear he veri veri bad sae i look like auntie..... bad bad....haiz... exam result coming le juz two more daes ahead haha...... die le.... mi ask my boi2 check 4 mie i gt no confident to check scare i fail haha..... haiz will i fail.... so scare.... em todae time pass soo fast.... waste alot of time at the hospital haiz... think no gems also will kanna fr there...... haiz.... veri tired wanna sleep......
kenneth bad bad put my ugly photo in friendster.... haiz haiz... mie hair short short not nice wanna cut some more..... haha.... he dun let mie cut short short i purposely wanna cut...... some more he dare mie okok.... c how...... haha

wedding dinner...

2005-10-16T13:50:00.000-07:00

yesterdae we went to the dinner..... funny thingy was i dun even knoe who is groom or bride haha..... but is my relative veri close one as we share the same surname.... my grandfather side one..... em maybe we never meet ba.... haha... i n my sis wear any how.... juz normal nv wear formal... haha but i wear long long sleeves to cover my the injected part soo ugly but in the end ah ma still saw it she tot i kanna mosquito bite....... i told her is not mosquito bite is injection... haha i tot i say she will understand but haiz... i told my boi boi he also laugh.... haiz..... bad bad.... hum....the food taste ok ok but onli the fish not nice gt weird weird somemore i hate fish eeee yucks..... hahaha

Em.... yesterdae someone call mie hum..... mie feel fishy.... dun knoe realli getting distance with him i gt nothing to tell him n he also i dun knoe y? feel so funny toking to him.... i dun knoe.... perhaps time 4 mi to gib up everything.... boi boi realli treats mie well... i realli dun knoe how.... i feel veri sorry i m so selfish.... i realli cannot forgive myself.... i giving everyone chance em... c how ba..... but hope boi boi dun treat mi too good i scare i hurt him more...... i dun wan this to happen sorry if i had made any mistake..... i feel great saying all this frm my heart.... realli... juz wish boi boi dun read this....

em my short short hair.... still cannot take it.... soo funny veri.... i wear spect more like little girl girl haha..... no choice have to cannot c le more worse.... later kanna accident more worse..... yesterdae drive to bukit batok wow... traffic jam haiz... make mi have to control the clutch until leg veri sour.... haha then i gib up ask my daddy drive to the resturant.... hahaha... lazy mie...... todae sleep till soo late.... really i become pig le....... haha..... die die tml need go check up..... again again i soo scare mine red spot haven gone still big haiz..... wan leng also how..... haiz i think haiz.... but wan leng mei dun worry nth will happen... mei mei soo scare.... mie too....

i regret cutting my hair.....haiz

2005-10-14T13:53:00.000-07:00

My long long hair i miss it soo much.... realli regret cutting it..... my boi boi laughed at mi soo sad sad....haiz he bad bad....... i alreadi veri sad le he still laugh...... humph... yesterdae meet up my friends go checkup..... dun knoe who kanna TB make us have to go check up...... i veri scare scare injection.... almost cry....opps!

haha no lah i big big girl le nv cry cry....hehehe.... actually i scare i will kanna the disease cause the nurse sae if the injected part is more than 1.5 big have to take x-ray or simply mean that u had contact the disease.... then todae i measure is bigger than that how how.... i scare scare panic panic mi i scare i will be isolated cannot c my boi boi n frens........ i will miss them soo much.... i cannot have the disease...... NO NO... how wat shld i do... ????????

well yesterdae we went eat n go k'ster sing sing... fish treat us soo good good we wan return money to her but he juz dun accept..... i go there fish keep on ask mi sing.... haha i dun like to sing but in the end gt sing a bit bit..... haha realli veri veri happie enjoy soo much thanks everyone....... cya guys soon... nw have to choose to be sat then li jing can go high fan tian with us... haha.... mondae coming how i veri scare.... measure measure..... wat if i kanna the disease wat shld i do..... i die die haiz.....

soo Boring Nothing to do at home.....

2005-10-06T13:27:00.000-07:00

Nw i find that really looks like piggy le...... sleep n sleep alot...... everydae stay at home eat n sleep..... haiz.... growing fatter n fatter le...... hahaha....... hurry school reopen leh.... i miss my frens soo much 1 week nv c them le......haiz..... chalet is coming left few daes onli...... yeah but received a bad news jing jing jie jie cannot go she have to work work.....haiz.....

left few more weeks then school reopen le cannot sleep late late le...... haiz i dun knoe wat i wan now also .... hahaha..... tues we went look 4 job....
Firstly go SIR building with mummy take passport then meet lin jing jie jie n fishy at raffles place then we head to city hall look 4 the resturant......."when i first step in the resturant i straight away reject working there"..... haha lin jing still went 4 the interview..... haha.... after that we went to suntec walk walk saw my fren at toys'R' us.......fill in the form..... we then walk to the new national library......... c c look look.... nothing much planning to borrow books but seems that no book for mie to borrow there........... haiz..... lastly we head back to bugis..... try our luck but ended up we juz go there shopping hahaha.......

NOW then i knoe looking 4 job is not a simple task haha..... walk n walk ask n ask until i realli totally give up sad sad...... how i wish i no need work let my other half "yang wo yi bei zi" hahaha but i knoe i juz day dreaming haha........

Graduation Dae......

2005-10-04T21:32:00.000-07:00

Graduation Ceremony....
Yeah finally the graduation ceremony is over........ busy for soo many dae finally i am release hahahaa...... yesterdae wanna blog but i was really too tired.... fell asleep so early too....
i look really weird in my clothing yesterdae.. veri funny.... hehe.... i wanna thank fishy for helping us with all the preparation.... hahaha... not forgeting wan leng n fren teaching us how to make up.....hahahaa wat i know how to make up was puting foundation n lip stick hehheeee..... soo stoopid..... took alot of pictures yesterdae smile n smile... until my mouth tired hehe.... my mummy n my lovely ah ma come attend my award ceremony....soo happie but juz miss my daddy he wasn't there.... haiz.... but but.... sob sob.... the news shoes i brought hurts my leg leg pain pain.....really hurts mie..... give mi a present of 2 blisters on my leg leg..... haiz.. forget to bite my shoes before i wear.... hahaha that's the rule wat the old ppl had alwaes mention..... aiya i dun care.... overall it was really a success...
haha... when look at jing jing jie jie... she look realli different... like my big jie jie n mummy.... k lah say till here le.... juz wish everyone good luck n continue to excel in my studies..... yeah say cheese............

Ahhhhhhhhhh.....

2005-09-29T20:55:00.000-07:00

YEAH the 5 of us finally took a picture together..... IN jungle or beach ???

yesterdae blogger spolit dun allow mi to blog haiz.... bad bad... yeah finally exam finish le.... yesterdae paper i do so fast tot i will have not enough time.....in the end i finish about 30 mins earlier......hahaha..... dun knoe gt careless mistake a not? we went shopping after that....... miss my shopping but..... dun knoe y after exam mi so tired....... time pass so
slow yesterdae...... wan leng bring pinky wallet hahaha....... lucky manage to buy something for her darling.....hahaha........ 4 mi... haiz i nv buy anything actually wanna buy my blouse n tot i could borrow my suit 4 graduation but in the end haiz..... i onli manage to borrow my top but not bottom again...... now i gt so many top but not even one bottom so sad......

hw i wish i gt someone beside mi to hold my tears n take care of mie forever NOW..... i really can't stand it alreadi........ bao bei........ hazi ...forget him.....

No mood to study

2005-09-25T09:40:00.000-07:00

todae still haven start to study haiz....i shouldn't buy my phone so early leh....i gt no mood to study.... keep on play with my phone the whole dae how.... it had been 3 daes alreadi wasted sia dun knoe still can study finish not haha..... so many things to discover in new phone.... wanna try put movie inside my phone c can watch ....try 4 soo long but my phone juz cannot play that format..... bad bad.... my fren send mi the movie which is 80pluz mb tru msn but fail twice haiz....waste electricity n time... die die......... haven start to study i dun knoe how....

think todae had to midnight wake up n studi le..... midnight owl hahaha...... c those taggie they wrote 4 mie i realli veri touch i veri happie knoe i won't be lonely.... there is a bunch of good frens alwaes behind mi love them soo much..... relationship alwaes give mi alot alot of problems.... yeah nvmind no bf gt one grp of frens enough le......i really happie le........... i will find some one better in future yeah....... wan to thank my friends...... thank you...

chalet coming le i veri veri happie...... after next week can go crazy le....... shopping n chalet here i come hahahaaaa........ wan leng remember to bring ur pink wallet along hahahaaa............... k lah tat's about it..... still have to work hard till thurs......... good luck my dear frens 4 the coming exam......... work hard ok last exam le........... hahahaa

wow soo long time nv post a blog....

2005-09-24T23:28:00.000-07:00

todae is a veri busy dae.......finally i left with the one n onli paper that is buliding material.....i think i need to write a feed back to the school they should not skip so many daes to the next paper..... make mi no mood to study hahaa...... todae i suppose to study but....haiz i juz dun knoe y i got no mood....... thinking so many chapter this time round "12 chapter"...... when i open the book i onli can c all words no picture veri sianz then i close planning tml to study hahaaaa........how....if continue like that i surely cannot do well de....

yeah gt good news.....mummy brought new handphone 4 mie but have to trade in mine old one miss it soo much gt alot of message i love wan all in that phone haiz...lucky brought the cable can work manage to save all the photos i took in my com....yeah.........this new phone gt alot of function but i m too stupid dun knoe hw to use hahaha.......daddy was great too fetch mi all the way to sim lim to buy the memory stick 1GB for my phone..........not bad he in gd mood........haha

it have been quite a long time never meet my bao bei mummy le.....i dun knoe shld i still miss him not? haiz.... he become n become more busy n nv bother to message mi or call mi already.... think this is the time to give up hope......... todae he did still call mi but juz dun knoe wat to tell him seems to be a distance away from him....... not as close as last time......haiz...... either i busy when he call mi or i call him he is busy haiz.... alwaes nv pick up my phone..... if he nv message mi i won't msg him........sound quite bad sia but.... i really really cannot accept a guy with two gals...... sorry i think everyone also.... if he love mi he can be with mi but onli mi in his heart not anyone else............ or we can juz be normal frens........ Em...that's too bad if he cannot make the decision.... i think i shld not use by force n i dun like forcing ppl this is bad to both parties.... let him have the free choice..........

haiz....... let everyone have a free choice to choose.... whenever he knoes tat a guy message mi he will be so upset, jealous n angry........ dun knoe y........ i alwaes tell him he had choosen one that he love n someone who care 4 him......... but he juz haiz..... dun sae le..... i knoe he will feel bad so sometime i keep it away fr him....... i gt no choice if he found out......haiz.....

Y relationship problems alwaes in my mind hw to forget it haiz...... am i wrong to agree this thingy at first or i did something wrong about the break up? *confuse* when then i can......... should i forget him ??? ??? ??? haiz........... nitez sweety........ muackz.....

busy dae todae?

2005-09-21T17:04:00.000-07:00

wake up so early juz to help mummy with the house work.......tml still gt exam.... i haven study finish scare i cannot finish.......... later still need help daddy cook dinner haiz..... soo many things to be done......still have to fold n keep the clothes wow......dun sae le.....

tml is the 2nd last paper le.....veri fast..... studi almost 60% le ba...but no no confident...can't wait to enjoy......tml paper carry the most weightage 50% of the moldue leh...cannot fail die die muz pass....... later need to study again..... study...... study............... do nothing but study the whole dae......haiz...

help mie please.......

3 n the half daes left 2 examz...(2nd last paper)

2005-09-19T21:16:00.000-07:00

Yeah.....todae another dae is going to pass..... i have study nothing much....actually wanna wake up at 6am this morning to study but i was too lazy...i even set my alarm to wake mi up n ask my sis to wake mie up but....but.....haiz.....forget about it........ i think i rest more than i study.....bad bad.....

wonder when then i can concentrate......watever i study juz couldn't get into my brain......"short term memory was so bad"...... nobody at home todae i was so lonely..... mummy all go work...... the house onli left mi n tabby....sob sob....lucky my sis come back early todae....haha... we study together...yeah... in the end no no i cannot make it.... alwaes wanna play haha.....

left few daes to the buliding science examz....can't believe i am sitting so front.... my seat no.2 leh... veri pressurize i scare i can't do well.....teacher keep on walk here and there i wish i can tell the teacher to stay put in the seat....hahahaaaa.....but fat hope haha....

my phone realli spolit le camera realli cannot works anymore...wat should i do...... mummy n daddy promise to buy new one for mie but i....cause i in love with this phone.....it had been with mie for more than a year....so far alwaes no problem but dun knoe why so naughty le.... mummy wanna mi sell away it n buy new de....i wanna k750i....but i also wan my phone... Can..... please dun sell him away....

Think i better send it to samsung hospital repair.... wahahhahaha

Nothing Much..........

2005-09-17T00:21:00.000-07:00

Never knoe so late alreadi stuck in the com. 4 soo long le....better stop le..... com later explode i cannot play le.......hahaaaa.....Fishy thank u help mi design my pic nice nice.....

todae so sad sad i tot baobei mummy will call mie but not even message mie...............totally give up hope on him........he changed......he nv care n even concern about mie.....the worse thingy he sae to mie was he "HATE MIE" is the veri first time he sae this to mie......y he did this to mie...........didn't knoe how i feel.........hurt mie so much.....haiz............he hate mie i hate him tooo ooooo........ i soo miss him but....wat he did...disappoint mie..

lucky someone make mie laugh.......haha tok to mie..........but he bad bad bully mie.........that was the bad boi kenneth........humph sae mie..... i wanna make the whole world knoe u bully mie....... better not sae too much.........

todae found out one mistake for my law question "it is fradulent 4 the last question" actually i correct de but i so stupid go change my ans dun trust myself haiz..... c this is wat i get 11 marks gone haiz wasted.........finally term test finish le now thur have semester exam........this time round no matter wat muz trust myself hahahaaaaa.........yeah wanna study study hard.....

shld i feel sad...happie....angry...or wat?

2005-09-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

Fishy n lin jing come my house todae......fishy finally help mi figure out how the cable thingy works........yeah finally it works she so clever thank u thank u her sooo much...........daddy sae nxt time muz treat her lunch......dun worry i will...........yeah i no need waste the $30 bucks.......

eh....he veri bad todae actually wanna meet mi straight after he come out from camp de.......but i issit him to go home put his things first before meeting mi but.........he haiz.... i was soo hungry shld ask daddy pack food 4 mi not to wait 4 him to eat dinner with mi....haiz.....but....he....at least shld tell mi......sad sad i kanna cheated by him twice alreadi...........sob sob........finally i found something that he had change from last time.......he doesn't care about mie soo much as last time...i veri disappointed y he sae he "love mie" still have the feeling of mie n this impression he gave mie was like cheating my feelings. now finally i knoe wat is the truth........ i dun knoe wat he is doing now? i realli veri confuse........ y i care about him so much n in the end wat i gt was.......n watever he show concern on mie was lying to mie or wat.........haiz.....how can i trust him in future????forget about it........he finally call mie......now the time is supper time 4 mie not dinner....dinner to mie is over............y? y?

A guy message mi sae he wanna woo mie i was so frighten dun knoe wat to do....... i really cannot trust in realtionship alreadi..... i really so regret y did so much inorder to love someone.....or someone to love u.............I HATE........ I HATE.....i hate everything wat is present i can't take it anymore......veri sick todae......headache pain pain.............i deeply.. disappointed............. I didn't knoe wat happened to me todae.....Alwaes throw my temper on him.....haiz.....think i can't make it alreadi i GIVING UP everything...............

sob...sob.....sob...sob.......sob.........................

ECT Exam Finish loh....

2005-09-15T18:50:00.000-07:00

Yeah i soo happie my ECT learn soo long finally is over....i can relax a bit loh.....but still gt building science n building material soo mah fan........haiz.............

when can i really realx???? todae the ECT exam soo many drawing n have to describe soo many things to do within the 2 hours of course cannot finish lah...sad sad........ teacher driving us crazy....i wanna get out of this world to the planet........how i wish i can live without stress everydae........."he finally sae out the truth that he still love mi" i soo complicated wat shld i do?

k i think i should stop here........hey dun think too much......i think we r impossible u gt her alreadi one man cannot take two gals at the same time yeah.....understand forget about mi ba........i will be alrite.......dun worry.......... i knoe u will read it one dae.... but dun worry u will still be the best in my deep deep heart ok.........miss ya....continue to be with her enjoy ur sweet sweet realationship...... okok......

brain goin to blurst le

2005-09-14T22:57:00.000-07:00

todae study the whole dae still cannot get everything into my brain veri scare tml cannot make it........haiz...how have to wake up early to learn n revise all over again....dun c juz tested onli 3 chapter but there is alot to learn.........haiz...help

i miss my bed my shopping n my holidae.......sooo much.................haiz....how 2 more weeks after exam so long........can't stop thinking of it.....

wish mi all the best 4 my exam tml okok.........good nitez stop here le......

todae law examz.....

2005-09-13T18:50:00.000-07:00

heeheee law exam i dun knoe i screw up the whole paper dun knoe wat i am writing also how.....i quote the case correctly but the final decision wrong leh.....bluz....dun knoe wat i am thinking also

but overall hopefully i think i can pass but not that well as last time....haha "hopefully" i think but 40% i will pass then 60% i will fail.....haiz....no confidence......haiz... i miss my bao bei mummy leh nobody study with mi so lonely.....haiz how??? can he alwaes not go camp stay with mi forever? y man need to go army? girls cannot go mehz...heheeee... i wish i can stay with him forever...............miss u...muackz

thurs gt ECT exam loh....veri fast fridae over then saturdae is coming n i going out wif him go shopping but muz agar agar cannot neglect my study......i will do my veri best.....i wonder the ECT exam difficult not? scare scare i cannot do.....

k lah sae till here le... i wanna go study le...muz study hard hard............yeah......good luck to mi...
this kelvin insist that i muz write him inside hahaaaaa.....k loh he veri bad nv study alwaes hang in the com waste electricity hahaaa....k lah not so bad at least he gt tok to mi in msn now i not so bored hahaaaaaaaaaaaaa....funny joker.....yeah. aiya really need to stop here...........bye

Tml Exam Loh......

2005-09-12T18:34:00.000-07:00

jia you jia you.........fishy all the best to ur exam luv u muackz...
Haha..can't believe tat tml is exam loh.....so fast one week had passed alreadi so scare i can't make it.....yesterdae wake up at 3 am to study ECT study till 5 plus then fell asleep yeah.....but wake up alreadi forget wat i study haiz... no use waste my time....

todae so tired my eyes alreadi gt or bba kka alreadi look like panda not pretty le.....haiz....how.... i wake up at 9 plus to 10 like that start study my law until now finally study finish le but...no confidence i can remember all tml haha....thank lin jing jie jie teach mi the remedies......i finally understand le.... later before i sleep browse through once again then ready for the battle for tml..

Law exam here i come....haha....Mummy francis gt concert tonight juz wish him all the best for the performance..... bao bei mummy u dun worry about mi i will take care of myself de....i will try my veri best......good luck to myself 4 tml exam n him 4 his concert.....take care ya.....

Veri fast my chalet n shopping is coming hahaaaaa...count down.....

Em...todae?

2005-09-11T22:34:00.000-07:00

My emhum...come my house hahaa i brought the data cable but cannot use haiz.....soo ask him help....help.....haiz....try so long but still cannot....waste money.......wat should i do? hey guys dun think too much he juz helping mi as a fren okok............knoe surely u will sae something de.......

miss my frenz soo much onli two dae never c them....haha....todae went to my baby cousin house to celebrate her first month.....veri boring there.....waste time there should be at home study but i did not....daddy loh......haiz....

yesterdae wake up at 3 am to study haha......but study till 5 then sleep le.........haahaa..lazy... think todae also need to like that le nv study much....em..... i still constructing my happie life ahead hahaaaaaa wishing mi all the best ba......

wat should i sae?

2005-09-10T00:56:00.000-07:00

Todae when school stresssssssss......gt IT test one is excel n the other lai WC acess......die die nv listen in class alwaes chit chat n surf net during lesson...........dun knoe hw....exam so fast......hahahaaaa....bad bad..........but lucky it's open book test haha....n the good teacher invigerate us not the mah tong wc teacher.....heng heng....heheheeee.....at last is finish le.....but somemore test coming le.....stress....

em...wat we had 4 lunch todae yummy yummy thai food haha but of course not spicy food lah.....then i meet my onli mummy francis......yeah he come bugis find mi but so shy nv tok to my fren....he sae he give up his game n come meet mi soooo good hor......later he going BBQ at east coast.....funny he too long nv go then he lost his way there... he call mi soo scare dun knoe where he is......hahah....i lead him the way through phone wow......great rite.....actually wanna fetch him there by my car but....i dun knoe how to go? at last he reach there haha.....

Todae should be a great dae i think tml he have to go back camp le.....wow veri fast a week pass...i can't wait 4 our chalet in oct coming loh.....i alwaes think of that then i can study or else i veri trouble......haha it helps alot.....wan leng is waiting 4 her shopping time haha......so do i....still wanna buy our jumper suit n yellow clothes hahaaaa..........

? i dun knoe ?

2005-09-08T19:58:00.000-07:00

Em todae....

we went to school todae actually todae is suppose to be a study dae n should stay at home revise but....juz wanna go back sch practise about our IT test tml.....so scare i dun knoe anything....but in the end we when sch juz to surf net n to chit chat.......onli suwati was the one trying to figure out things....haha funny.....opps think no time study le.....better use the time meaningfully....

A veri weird dae todae dun knoe wat happen to mi dun knoe why i sae all those things i so....too .....but really feel better at least he knoes wat i am thinking.... if i nv sae he also dun knoe...but i dun knoe whether should i do this.....ya love is alwaes selfish but....i dun knoe y because of my kindness... i decided to give up my loved one to someone else n still wish them best of luck......i am so foolish or silly.... now i am the one who created this problem......suffering also mi.....haiz....wat should i do.........should i make things so clear?

i alreadi sae wat i suppose but i still dun knoe whether i still love him should i tell him ? but i dun wanna be 3rd party.....wat does he mean about "he wanna be my special fren more than that"? does he love mi still should we get together again or should i wish him best of luck n forget him? i alwaes feel bad about my doing "when then i won't regret" die examz coming n i am stuck in a relationship problem wat shld i do.........think i should juz leave it a side until examz finish.......

Help mi get mi out of the maze quick faster n soon............. wow my 1st realationship was really a mess.....it is really a veri difficult one i really need time to heal everything......i should not drag this anymore things have to make clear 4 both parties then no one will get hurt more.... AM I RITE?..

Happy Day.. :-)

2005-09-07T18:49:00.000-07:00

Yeah...
Yesterday, soo busy no time to blog haiz......busy with the design drawing last tutorial... have to hurry finish so that i have no more worries to study for my examz.........examz....still coming loh...left 5 more daes......soo fast veri scare i really have no confident to do well this time.......

my mummy soo good come fetch mi from school yesterdae.....yeah i not lonely anymore hahaha.......finally gt someone can send mi till my house soooo happi yeah.......mummy yesterdae "POP" le he so happi.....wanna congrad. him.....finally he finish his 3 months NS happi for him too......haha... we go eat ice kachang.....nice yummy yummy.......he came my house to accompany mi study heheee....but in the end he sleep haiz......bad bad....

Todae actually wanna meet mummy de but but......he.....he.... haiz......stuck to the comp. wat he mention as his CCA "dota"??? haha i also dun knoe...... todae have to study all by myself le.......... haiz.....haiz...........bad bad sommore yesterdae sae until so gd wanna fetch mi......haiz sob sob.....have to go home alone.....wan leng loh nv wait 4 mi...sob sob.....lucky gt lin jing jie jie n fish n suwati.......pei wo..........so kelian..........hehehe no lah joking joking heheeeee........

Hw? i veri scare leh.....this time round the battle seems to be so difficult i veri scare.......i dun understand haiz.....think i better add oil add oil le...... i have no confidence.....haiz.....how.......

Baaaa Baaaaa....whahahaha

2005-09-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

Hmm....

nothing much had happened todae......em...i start school at 9.00 veri early hor....have to wake up at 7.00 n the purpose of waking up early is to catch my train to school.......wow think back again feel a bit regret y i choose my school so far waste the time on travel actually can sleep later......haiz...bad bad............then i end school around 3 pluz......reach home 5.00 loh.....almost half the dae is gone.....then i slept a while till 7.00pm......sunddenly wake up found out that i forget to do something.......help shuyi the drawing........n i nv study the todae.....actually plan wan to study law but nv...haiz...... amend the drawing alreadi take mi soo long time.......haiz......

yeah todae wan leng help mi change my blog template.....she really knoes wat i like man.....care about mie soo much.....my full time advisor too didn't knoe she younger then mi so playful but think she knoes more than mi.............my best sis forever.......yeah 3 cheers 4 her......hahaha

todae i did not study much soo tired.....n lazy a bit lah....hahaha... k lah think i stop here wanna sleep le......................................zzzZZZzzzzZZZZ...nitez.....miss ya luv ya alwaes......muackz !!!!!

love mi.....'''(*-*)'''

Thank U w@n LenG....

2005-09-04T22:37:00.000-07:00

Todae....wow same loh...

I wanna sae a big thank u to wan leng......thanks for hearing my troubles n it really helps when i share with her.....she help mi alot..... now at least i knoe wat to do...... i feel relieved............. Yeah!

i woke up early in the morning....i cry so upset n scare i cannot cope anymore with my studies.....feeling stress wanna give up....but alwaes i kept telling myself that i can't let my parents down i will continue to try my veri best.... yeah add oil add oil......

Everything went pretty well... firstly we go food fair n IT exibition at suntec.....then mummy daddy go my cousin birthdae BBq but i nv go cause i wanna study......veri scare dun dare to go.....somemore tml still gt school haha...........

Todae i study law really veri difficult.......veri difficult trying my veri best.....getting ready 4 the battle yeah........Not much to sae....while at suntec saw my jumper suit that i alwaes wanna buy n i promise myself aft exam i muz go shopping muz buy muz buy my onli wish.....yeah!!!!!!!!!

Can't wait for oct. gt chalet gt shopping await 4 mi.......................overall todae i feel great compare to.............em u knoe u knoe.....hehehe

Guardian angels i go sleep le muz promise to let mi dream of happi memories okok........ dun make me sad..........okok luv u alwaes muackz.................nitez nitez take care.......

'''(*-*)''' sob sob tml have to wake up early...haiz...

What should i do?

2005-09-03T23:07:00.000-07:00

Well todae another dae has passed n sundae is coming.....

Smoothly n meaningfully.....veri tired haiz....At least i knoe that i have not waste my time todae........well???? wat i actually done todae was firstly i went 4 for the yellow ribbbon walk.... finally had complete 3.5km walk although i feel veri tired but i really enjoy....then i meet out with my ex.......or can call him mummy.....we watch "red eye",dun knoe wat should i comment about the show......"boring"

Acutally, wondering whether should i sae this out.... i really dun know whether i.... i..... feel so weird when with him although i feel veri happi but then sometimes veri scare n.... dun knoe how to express it out ....haiz.... last time the feeling towards him was really veri different compare to now....."ya" but lucky found out that at least he is happi now n found someone that really cares about him n loved him "great"..... i alwaes feel so gulity so bad about myself so selfish..... AM I ?
i alwaes wonder......do i really make the correct decision.....

Time really passes so fast.....dun knoe why i feel so trouble n confuse todae.....worry about my examsssssss....worry about things that i shouldn't worry.... TOdae should be a happy dae for mi but......how i wish that my dear guardian angels will come beside mi now ....i feel so lonely so upset..... feeling that i am in the dark now stuck in the maze ... dearest angels wat should i do....haiz..... nvmind juz hope that everything will turn out to be fine......all worries will be taken away by my angels......yeah !!!!

We finally booked our chalet.......YEAH !!!!!!!

Lets pray.... for peace n to let everyone happi n cheerful alwaes.... To throw away all bad memories let juz beatiful memories to stay (*-*) lord in heaven hear my pray AMEN......

Em......

2005-09-02T21:42:00.000-07:00

Yeah Finally i have start to blog.....
Em....how should i start??????

My dearest Angels ....

todae realli so happy finally brought my tiny little pink bagggy...... it takes so long to let mi decide one wat i one? can someone tell mi y m i so frickle minded? haizzz.....no hope alreadi.... cause...... i born to be like tat......."yeah" lucky gt my frens to decide 4 mi... all else i will nv ever nv ever buy one.....hahaha thanks god i found them....

Die le....exam juz onli one week away..... veri veri scare this time dun knoe y? haiz....perhaps i play too much....have to work double x2 x2 hard nxt week le no more shopping, no more playing, no more tv.....

Tml gt yellow ribbon walk..... yeah i can meet my frens again....haha realli enjoy being with them...make my life more meaningful each dae....but i still miss the times with my friends in ite.....

A veri one question alwaes in my mind aft wan leng asked? ya....is loving someone better or being loved by someone better ? this question realli.........veri difficulit i... but.... think if i can choose i would alwaes wished that i am being loved....but...but..haiz???????

Sometimes i dun knoe why ppl feel so sad so moody dun knoe wat they r thinking? this troubles but i still dun understand why a realationship is so important to ppl? why....
sometimes i..... ya i admit i feel lonely not use to it but overall still.... when times passes hearts eventually will heals...tat wat i think...

overall still blur wishes someone give mi an answers! My dear lord in heaven hear my pray may everyone be happy alwaes...nites my angels love u miss ya alwaes....

2005-08-04T19:14:00.000-07:00

hello..